In Reboot Rezoom there will be 66 daily videos. Because that is how long it takes to create a new habit. Today's video was about releasing the need to be perfect. And it makes sense, if we don't expect to be perfect then when we aren't it's just back to business as usual instead of a great crash and burn.
It's one of the good tools, or attitudes, that I have adopted on this BLE journey; to rebound quickly without beating up on myself. The first day of January I was up in the middle of the night finishing the last piece of pie. It had been tormenting me all day, the white bakery box sitting on the stove, knowing there was no one else who wanted it but me. There was no fight, I didn't even try to reason with the part of me who was getting the pie, I had just known all day that if the pie was still there I was going to eat it. Not a decision or definite thought or plan, just a deep seeded knowing that this was how the day could end; me with pie in my face. Literally.
The next day was barely better, my evening "4th meal" being a PB sandwich on sprouted whole grain bread. So no flour or sugar, but I was still sad. One minute I was lying in bed feeling grateful for the lightness of my stomach and that I would have healing time during the night. Dinner had been at 4pm and I wouldn't break my fast until the next morning at 8am. But no, I had to get out of bed and make myself a snack about 10pm when I couldn't sleep or get comfortable because of the pain in my hip and leg.
I'm feeling stronger today mentally. Had a small bowl of potato chips before dinner, but I think I will be fine tonight. I have a book to listen to, and a MMG to meet with in just a few minutes. And my daughter is on a mission; between decluttering around the house and making good food choices she is currently a force of nature I will gladly orbit around.
Off to my meeting. Good night to a good day.
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